Hard To Say Goodbye

Another year means another Holiday season without Daniel. You'd think after three years I'd get used to it, but for some reason this year seems harder than previous years. It could be because it's the first time he will miss Thanksgiving, or because it's the first time he has left so early in the season, or that this is the longest that he could be gone... but I think and blame my hopeless fantasizing.

I blame the books I read and movies I watch, because only in the movies do things always workout perfectly. As women we are tricked (at a very young age... thank you Disney) into believing there is always a prince who will hopelessly fall in love with us, spoil us, and make everything workout seamlessly. Ha joke's on us! Not that we don't meet great guys, or have good lives, it's just not the perfect daydream that we're promised. I could stop reading happy ending stories and watching sappy movies but the effects have already taken a toll and it's irreversible.

The Best Gift You Can Give is Your Presence

With the holiday's approaching and black Friday just around the corner everyone is thinking about what they want for Christmas and what they should give others.  While there is nothing wrong with giving or receiving gifts, I've come to find the best gift you can give is your presence.

Our lives are so busy and we tend to have more to do than hours in the day, so this holiday season please remember to slow down and live in the moment.  The cell phones, emails, Facebook, and everything distracting can wait, but the moment that is happening before you (wether it's dinner with family or a friend, playing a board game with your child, taking a walk with your husband, or sitting in front of a fire) will only happen in that moment, and if you're not present, fully present, in that moment you just might miss it.  

Root of All Evils

I know a lot of people wanted to hear a guilty verdict in the Conrad Murray trial, some for justice and some for closure. I however want it to set an example, that we are all responsible for our own actions and that money, fame, and notoriety don't mean we can let our good judgement and integrity go out the window.

The reason Michael died is money. He had enough of it to buy whatever he wanted including a personal doctor, who let money cloud his judgement. Should Conrad have turned Michael down or told him no at anytime, Michael would've just found someone else to say yes.

Money will always buy you what you want, but at what cost?

The true victim in this tragedy is society, so many have lost their way. I can only hope this guilty verdict will help prevent someone else from making a poor life altering decision.

Where Does The Time Go?

An hour, minute, week, month go by and suddenly you realize you don't remember what you've been doing or where that time went.  My latest time warp shock was realizing how quickly time had passed since my last blog.  So where does time go?  Why do we seem to have less time each passing year?  I can remember being a kid and thinking I'll never be old enough to drive, and now I renew my license thinking, "didn't I just do this?" 

What scares me the most is missing time with friends and family, I've noticed over the last year or so that I'll have lunch with someone and talk about how we don't do this often enough and how we should get together more only to let months go by without seeing each other again.  Is it that we are to busy?  To caught up in our own lives?  Are we to blame or is it society in general?  

Whatever the reasons are for this lack in spare time, I vow to change it in my life.  To make time for the important things and people, to have more fun, more get togethers, and enjoy each spare minute that I do find!  I will do my best to make time stand still long enough for me to make memories but you'll have to meet me half way!!